Who am I?

That's the question that I ask my self recently. Who am I actually in this family? Am I adopted or am I really their daughter? Why I fell like that? The way they treat me make me wondering who am I? Because of that question that keep wondering around in my head make me always get migrain! But, do they care about that? I don't think so.. If it their sons tell them they had headache or what so ever even just lenguh, surely they will massage them or if its a bit heavy like fever, they will bring them to clinic or hospital. But if it were me? In your dream! They'll tell me.."Tak pe. Nanti ok la tu." Like last camp I twisted my ankle, almost two months later baru diorg bawa aku ke klinik. Itu pon when their son ask them to bring me to clinic because I cannot walk properly and I can't wear heels. If not, "Nak buat macam mana.. Nanti elok la tu sendiri. Siapa suruh nak pergi camp hari tu." Every words from them I will always remember because maybe what happened to me happened to their son too but the reaction is very very different. If it happening to their son, they will quickly try to recover them. But if with me? Recover yourself la! Huh.. I don't know what to do with my life, my brain and my heart. If this situation keep happening to me and the question keep wondering in my head, I might get brain tumor! But I don't think they will mind. Hmm.. What to do? Teruskan je la hidup ni dengan cara aku. Because itu je yang berkesan dengan aku.. For them (family) and other, I just their temam kebosanan, teman kekecewaan, teman melepaskan geram, teman bebelan n more of teman but not really teman kegembiraan and kebahagiaan. They do share with me sometime. But it really really rarely! Because of what? I don't know! For a long long time I didn't update my blog, but suddently I update this. Must be really weird. It is because I don't know with whom I should share this. In fact! I don't think anyone would care what I feel or what I think. Argh! Whatever la! Nobody care!