Perasaanku kini?

Buat masa ni aku terasa amatla boring sbb dok umah je. But ada la gak kadang2 kluar. Tp x seselalu mcm wktu skola dulu la.. Ni pon start cuti hari tu baru semalam (26 Nov ~ Mlm Raya Aidil Adha)aku ke rmh Mak. Sebelum2 ni ada gak nak pergi coz ingat nak lepak2 ngan Mira but Ayh mls nak anta plak. So, nak buat mcm ne kan? Kene la terperap je kat dlm umah ni. But u know what? After that mangkok hayun blah dr lembaran hidup sehariannku, aku rasa lagi aman coz aku x perlu slalu check phone, byk habiskan masa on9 utk layan dia. Kang klo x layan kang dia kata aku lupakan "kawan" la plak.. Ni yg aku mls ni.. Byk la aku kene buat. But now since he gone, byk masa blh aku gunakn utk diri aku such as play games, watch movies, reading n so much more yg aku x slalu dpt buat la. So, aku dpt byk masa utk memanjakan diri aku sendri. N it's felt so much more fun. Extremely! Even though kadang2 bosan, but it's feel so nice. I don't care la klo dia terasa or what klo dia baca ni. But this is what I feel. Sorry to say this but perangai ko yg skarg ni teramat la aku menyampah. Juga org yg slalu ko bela. Bukan la aku menyampah, it just I don't like her attitude n personality nowadays.. She seem so different than I first know her. I know people change from time to time. But she change to much in short term. She's like not the person that I used to be with. She's 80% different. Huh.. Byk benda sebenarnya yg nak aku luahkan. Tapi, entah la.. Aku x tau mcm ne nak luahkan lagi.. Nak plak ni dah cuti skola kan.. Lg la mkn lme dah x jumpa dia. Tp nak buat mcm ne.. Dia dgn family dia, aku dgn family aku. Just do our own stuff for the rest of this holidays okay... I just want to say sorry to her if I had done anything wrong. Which I don't know what I did wrong to her. Lebih baik kalo dia luahkan, senang aku nak perbetulkan. But she kept silence.. It's so bothered me... I don't know how to act infront of her.. So, secara keseluruhannya perasaan aku bercampur-gaul mcm ABC or Rojak.. Macam-macam ada... Hehehehe, just kidding.. :D Hmm.. Entah la.. Oh ya, aku nak tgk movie Twilight: Newmoon.. But ticketnya dah abes dijual hingga hari Selasa ni.. Igtkan mggu dpn nak la g tgk ngan Mira n perhaps Ain skali kot mak dia kasi ikut ke.. Tp Mira blk kmpg la plak sampai 8 Dis ni... Hayyo... *sigh* Ah! Whatever la.. Hari lain or cite lain or dgn org lain pon aku blh tgk movies.. No problems meh! Heheehe :))