24 November 2010 :D

Outing with Amirah Haziyah and Aghnia Zuyyin Maisun! Setelah sekian lama tak outing dengan diorang, akhirnya impianku tercapai setelah merancang outing selama seminggu! Hahaha :)) Apa ke lama beno rancangannye kan... Tu lah nasib anak gadis yang bernama Nur Syahirah ini. Walaupon tinggal di bandar, diari lembaran kehidupanku seperti gadis kampung yang masih di sekolah rendah. Apa boleh buaat.. :( Hmmm.. Pada tanggal 24/11/2010, aku, Amirah dan Aghnia telah ke Sunway Pyramid untuk outing bersama! Menonton Harry Potter And The Deadly Hallow Part 1, berkaraoke di Redbox, lunch+hi tea at Wendy's, send Mira to bus stop, wondering around in Pyramid while tunggu dijemput untuk pulang ke rumah ialah aktivitiku di Pyramid. Bagi yang membaca mungkin menganggap boring, but for me, it was a WONDERFUL morning till evening! I had a lot of fun with them. It help me blow up my stress! Really need that a lot. Thanks guys! Hope to have an outing with you guys again and again and again! :-*

Who am I?

That's the question that I ask my self recently. Who am I actually in this family? Am I adopted or am I really their daughter? Why I fell like that? The way they treat me make me wondering who am I? Because of that question that keep wondering around in my head make me always get migrain! But, do they care about that? I don't think so.. If it their sons tell them they had headache or what so ever even just lenguh, surely they will massage them or if its a bit heavy like fever, they will bring them to clinic or hospital. But if it were me? In your dream! They'll tell me.."Tak pe. Nanti ok la tu." Like last camp I twisted my ankle, almost two months later baru diorg bawa aku ke klinik. Itu pon when their son ask them to bring me to clinic because I cannot walk properly and I can't wear heels. If not, "Nak buat macam mana.. Nanti elok la tu sendiri. Siapa suruh nak pergi camp hari tu." Every words from them I will always remember because maybe what happened to me happened to their son too but the reaction is very very different. If it happening to their son, they will quickly try to recover them. But if with me? Recover yourself la! Huh.. I don't know what to do with my life, my brain and my heart. If this situation keep happening to me and the question keep wondering in my head, I might get brain tumor! But I don't think they will mind. Hmm.. What to do? Teruskan je la hidup ni dengan cara aku. Because itu je yang berkesan dengan aku.. For them (family) and other, I just their temam kebosanan, teman kekecewaan, teman melepaskan geram, teman bebelan n more of teman but not really teman kegembiraan and kebahagiaan. They do share with me sometime. But it really really rarely! Because of what? I don't know! For a long long time I didn't update my blog, but suddently I update this. Must be really weird. It is because I don't know with whom I should share this. In fact! I don't think anyone would care what I feel or what I think. Argh! Whatever la! Nobody care!

Wah.. Wah.. Wah..

X sabarnya menunggu Family Day office Ayh.. Juga x sabarnya nak ke Bandung! Sume tu akn berlaku lg 2 minggu. Sungguh aku x sabar! Dah lama gila kott x swim! Bkn kott, mmg pon dah lme x swim! Thn ni x pnh skali pon aku swim. Ni yg excited gila ni. N gila juga x sabarnya utk bershopping-moping di Bandung, Indonesia! Aku nak shopping habis2an smpai abes duit yg ayh bwk.. Hehehehe :D :)) Hmm.. Sebenarnya aku rindu gila kat teman2 skola.. Dah lme x jmpa diorg.. Mira! Bila ko nak blk ha?? Aku bosan gila ni.. Nak ajk ko outing. Kte gi la Pyramid.. Skarang tgh YES ni... Hehehehe :D Yg lain klo nak ikut blh gak.. Just tell me n kte pakat ble nak pergi ye.. Hehehe :DD Tu je la kott.. Annyiong!

Perasaanku kini?

Buat masa ni aku terasa amatla boring sbb dok umah je. But ada la gak kadang2 kluar. Tp x seselalu mcm wktu skola dulu la.. Ni pon start cuti hari tu baru semalam (26 Nov ~ Mlm Raya Aidil Adha)aku ke rmh Mak. Sebelum2 ni ada gak nak pergi coz ingat nak lepak2 ngan Mira but Ayh mls nak anta plak. So, nak buat mcm ne kan? Kene la terperap je kat dlm umah ni. But u know what? After that mangkok hayun blah dr lembaran hidup sehariannku, aku rasa lagi aman coz aku x perlu slalu check phone, byk habiskan masa on9 utk layan dia. Kang klo x layan kang dia kata aku lupakan "kawan" la plak.. Ni yg aku mls ni.. Byk la aku kene buat. But now since he gone, byk masa blh aku gunakn utk diri aku such as play games, watch movies, reading n so much more yg aku x slalu dpt buat la. So, aku dpt byk masa utk memanjakan diri aku sendri. N it's felt so much more fun. Extremely! Even though kadang2 bosan, but it's feel so nice. I don't care la klo dia terasa or what klo dia baca ni. But this is what I feel. Sorry to say this but perangai ko yg skarg ni teramat la aku menyampah. Juga org yg slalu ko bela. Bukan la aku menyampah, it just I don't like her attitude n personality nowadays.. She seem so different than I first know her. I know people change from time to time. But she change to much in short term. She's like not the person that I used to be with. She's 80% different. Huh.. Byk benda sebenarnya yg nak aku luahkan. Tapi, entah la.. Aku x tau mcm ne nak luahkan lagi.. Nak plak ni dah cuti skola kan.. Lg la mkn lme dah x jumpa dia. Tp nak buat mcm ne.. Dia dgn family dia, aku dgn family aku. Just do our own stuff for the rest of this holidays okay... I just want to say sorry to her if I had done anything wrong. Which I don't know what I did wrong to her. Lebih baik kalo dia luahkan, senang aku nak perbetulkan. But she kept silence.. It's so bothered me... I don't know how to act infront of her.. So, secara keseluruhannya perasaan aku bercampur-gaul mcm ABC or Rojak.. Macam-macam ada... Hehehehe, just kidding.. :D Hmm.. Entah la.. Oh ya, aku nak tgk movie Twilight: Newmoon.. But ticketnya dah abes dijual hingga hari Selasa ni.. Igtkan mggu dpn nak la g tgk ngan Mira n perhaps Ain skali kot mak dia kasi ikut ke.. Tp Mira blk kmpg la plak sampai 8 Dis ni... Hayyo... *sigh* Ah! Whatever la.. Hari lain or cite lain or dgn org lain pon aku blh tgk movies.. No problems meh! Heheehe :))

13 Oktober 2009

Pada jam 0940 bertarikh 13 Oktober 2009. Tarikh dan masa ini merupakan hari bersejarah yang tidak tercatat di dalam mana-mana buku. Pada tarikh keramat ini, Bendera Penjajahan PMR telah diturunkan dan Bendera Enjoy telah dinaikkan yang membawa erti seluruh warga Malaysia yang berumur 15 tahun yang mengambil Peperiksaan PMR Telah dimerdekakan! Darurat "duduk rumah study" telah dibubarkan menjadi "keluar rumah sampai pagi". Akan tetapi cogan kata "keluar rumah sampai pagi" jgnlah kita amalkan kerana sesungguhnya kita masih seorg pelajar. Cukupla kluar sampi ptg jee... :)) xD Enjoy!

Tarikh Keramat 7 Okt ~ 13 Okt 2009

Tarikh ini merupakan penentu hala tuju hidupku dah juga seluruh warga Malaysia yg berusia 15 tahun. Tarikh ini merupakan tarikh kami semua menghadapi Peperiksaan Penilaian Menengah Rendah di sekolah yg telah didaftar sejak awl tahun. Semoga kita semua dapat menjawabnya dgn tenang tanpa gangguan. Good Luck!

Raya! Raya! Selamat Hari Raya!

Selamat Hari Raya sume.. Thn ni aku raya kat dua2 kampung... Syoknya raya thn ni.. Still dpt byk duit raya. Raya Pertama hingga ketiga raya di Rembau, N. Sembilan. Raya keempat hingga keenam raya di Ipoh, Perak. Hmmm... Just nak wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin Dari Hujung Rambut Hingga Hujung Kaki. Swmoga raya ini lebih meriah drpd tahun2 sblm ni... ^__^